Marriage life can have its challeges is it is, but us military wives go beyong challenges. Yes, sometimes our husbands can get out of our nerves, that you wish that well go away for awhile. But be careful what you wish for, because as my experience of being a military wife and my husband being currently deploy thats a horrible feeling. My husband's first deployment was November 2009 through May 2010 6 months to be exact. At that time we were engaged. It was very rough but the bright side was that he had wifi so through skype we were able to call one another, and obviously see each other as well. Plus we were used to the long distance relationship, since at the time we were dating he was in New Mexico, and I was living in Chicago, so to be honest with you that deployment wasn't that hard at all. Even though everyday I was always concern about him praying to God to keep him safe since he was deploy to Afganistan. But this deployment is different and way way harder. He recently got deploy about two weeks ago. Now we have one year being married, and we have a beautiful 3 month old baby girl. Being married makes this deployment harder, not only do I have to raised a 3 month old baby by myself, but he's going to miss seeing her daughter grow up. It breaks my heart that hes going to miss some precious memories of our baby's life. But the thing that I'm the most afraid is Adriana not recognizing who her daddy is when he comes back. We got her two recording books so even though he cant see her daddy he can hear him. And also a problem with this deployment is that he doenst have wifi so in order for him to call me or get on facebook to chat he has to go to a room. Another problem is that the internet is not strong enough to hold calls with skype. Now I have to wait for him to call me, without being able to see each other. The worst part is that I miss him so freaking much that it hurts. I feels like theres a hole in my chest. I was so used to waking up every morning to him, and seeing him everyday. He became my life. So now let me tell you about yesterday night. I couldn't sleep at all because i was going insance being worried. For the past two weeks since my husband being deploy hes been calling me either before or after work everyday. And on wednesday morning was the last time he call. He didnt call me in the afternoon so i thought maybe he got busy but since he didnt call me yesterday all day it was very strange so i started to get very worried becuase he always finds way to call me so the first things that went through my mind was is he okay? did something happen? did he get attack? you cant think straight because you are so worried someting might had happen. The worst part is that theres nothing you can do to communicate with him you just have to wait to either get a call from him or a call from somebody telling you some bad news. Its a very emotional experience. Only a day without hearing from him can make you go insane. You might think one day is exaggerating for your husband not to call you, but lets talk about facts; one he's overseas, hes in another country that you dont know the environment hes living at. Two hes deploy so theres a chance something bad might have happen. Three you can't communicate with him. So now do you really thing one day is exaggerating? So i would adviced you to not take your husband for granted and you should really be happy that right now your husband is sleeping next to you, even if he is snoring lol..because right now i wish mine was next to me =(
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